Good morning! A new day, and the sun is up. I love the blue sky. I feel invigorated and excited about life today, even though nothing has really changed. Interesting how sleep and food can affect us so much. I'm excited at the opportunity to cut my grass for the first time this season. I'm excited that I don't have to work too much..of course, I don't earn too much either, but I prefer time sitting in the sun to working at a job doing someone else's bidding. I can't wait until I retire to enjoy the sun.

I just have to avoid the "if only's" today and life will be good.

I may have to rename this blog. Perhaps I should call it skeptics apathy? Maybe not yet. How bout, "skeptic letting go"? I'll have to chew on that a bit. Probably too hasty for that name since there are still so many things I'm still hanging onto. There is still that one big christian hook in my back, keeping me from moving forward - but I think it is almost loose enough now that I can walk freely. Of course, I suspect the hook that christianity is the real culprit. If I manage to shake off one "anity" what's to prevent me from snagging another? No, the hook in my back is certainly the main problem, not christin'anity or anything else. Now, is the hook something I was born with? Something I picked up? Or something I created myself? I think those are questions I'll need to consider before I am able to let go of the hook. I wonder if mindfulness will be the key here - be mindful of the hook, neither clinging nor pushing away, and perhaps the hook will simply move on as do thoughts or desires that I don't attach myself too? Hmmmm.